kriskaiba453

I had friends already in LARP who told me to come join their Kingdom, and I did. Love Larp~ We just finished our Middle Ages Campaign, in a few weeks gonna start our fall/winter game...not sure the setting yet. Also doing SCA (Which is much too complicated to explain on 3 hour brain, so you get a link instead: [link] that is, if you don't know what it is). I've always wanted to do larp though. It is much different than normal RPing, but there is still some, but most of us never took part in the background rping anyways...I just happened to know a lot of it because I got in good with the head GM.

Tabletop is like DnD/Dungeons and Dragons, but not all Tabletops are like DnD though. This Tabletop is a tad simpler than DnD, but all created out of our GM/DM's mind. Brilliant and fun.

It's okay, I just read over the poem I wrote and decided I didn't like it anymore and gonna rewrite it...probably come out much better. It's not even typed, still in cursive in my notebook. But as I said, No Rush~

At this point in my life I don't know why I am constantly depressed, I just am. I have a ton of anxiety that can come out of nowhere and is very difficult. School is gonna be so fun starting at the end of the month...because...I'm gonna worry about is if I am able to get my work done because my brain can't translate it to text..and formed words to turn in stuff..I'm afraid I am gonna fail and be put on Academic Probabtion again, then on Academic Dismissal (like at my last college)...And I just wanna cry because I don't wanna be a bad student, but no one understands that I can't get stuff out of my head for school or creative. It's so hard. I don't procrastinate on purpose..I don't...but people see it as that..and they don't want to listen to me. (OMG there you go, You got some of my worries, but this is some anxiety mostly...My depression is a whole different set of emptiness where I just want to not be around anymore sometimes...)

I like having hobbies, or else I would be bored without school. I mean I am bored still..but you know, not as bored. I also am doing Rping again..had to take a break at the end of the semester because my previous board died and I had school stress because I had been hiding the fact I had academic dismissal (And probabtion previously)..from my parents...they don't know my real grades in school...I've lied about it all...

Eh...it was mostly today. Usually I would be in bed still. I usually stay up till 5 am, fall asleep maybe by 6am, get up at 4pm...but I fell asleep at 6am and got up at 9am because I had a lucid dream dealing with: English Dub Naruto; Curry of Life; a Bar; Drunkeness of the female I was protraying (not myself, hardly dream with myself specifically); and Tom Hiddleston. OMG it was all sorts of crazy, then I woke up because I was thirsty and sorta stayed up. Naruto Dub was my BF's fault because he got home from work this morning and he couldn't sleep so he played some WoW then watched some Naruto, and it was the one episode with Curry of Life or Life Curry, whatever it was...

But couldn't go back to sleep so stayed up. Have a headache, might go take a nap after this..well after I eat first...bloodsugar is low...

And I unfortunately don't have a job yet, I wish I did...applied to one place, but never got called back...and my BF's Sister works at the place, told me about how they are needing female workers for their female patient units working with Handicapped adults. So yeah, just full time school...BF works at the Prison though~